#20 The mistake you keep making
I’d meant to leave for California, really, this coming Wednesday, even though I’d meant to leave in March and then meant to leave the fifteenth June and definitely definitely meant to leave this past Saturday. I ended up leaving last night. 99% of what I had to do was done, but like always these days I found a reason to extend it, to smooth out the tasks and give myself more time because in this season of my life everything takes more time.
My car was packed and the first AirBnb guests were already in my house and I was staying at a friends while I wrapped up that 1%. And then yesterday I did the thing I knew I should not do, and like all things we do that we know we should not do it went badly, and then all of the sudden I couldn’t leave fast enough. A year of dragging my feet and feeling like I would never leave the woods, and it turned out I could just get in my car and go. It took less than an hour to get on the highway, and now I’m in Virginia, a…